Where The Heart Is: anger

In bible class last week it was my day to lead devotions and for my devotion I read this passage:

Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.

The reason why I chose this passage for devotions was not only because I know it well but also because it is relevant for so many people not just those who are confused, or feeling down. Before I continue on re-read the verse one more time...
I hope and am pretty sure everyone as accepted the fact that we are all human, and we make mistakes and that bad things WILL and ALWAYS DO happen to us. So if you think for some reason that this verse doesn't apply to you, get over it because it does! There has been so many times in my life that I have felt out of control, or lost in all of the confusion of everything that has happened or is happening in my life (not going to go into all that, for it would take a whole other blog) but through it all, the highest of highs to the lowest of lows I have been able to hold onto hope because of this verse. God knew when I had to move away from my mom to Utah it would brake my heart and make me angry at him, but still he allowed it to happen for he knew in the end it would build a strength and a story in me that is very unique and powerful. Those longs nights when I would scream and cry to God asking him why why why? He listened and listened and would comfort EVEN though I was angry at him!

In the verse it says 'you will come to me... and I will listen!' That it is huge, so get this: it doesn't say, 'you will come to me and be perfectly happy with me to me and I will listen' and it doesn't say 'you will have your life all in order then you can come to me and I will listen' and it doesn't say 'when you understand everything that is going on you will come to me and I will listen'! It just says you will call upon me and I will listen, God doesn't expect us to get all his plans, and be happy about all his plans, all he says is the plans are good and they are going to prosper us, and he will listen to our frustration, maybe our joys, our fears, our WHATEVER!!! That is so great! When you feel like angry, confused, and like your life is falling apart, and your full of stress up to your eye-balls. Come to God and tell him about it, talk to him, tell him your stresses, your worries, your struggles. God doesn't care if your perfect (because we never will be) and he certainly doesn't care if we understand because he is there to take care of all that.

What I have found is God just wants us to come to him honestly and openly about everything, to that you might think 'he already knows everything anyway so whats the point?'. The thing about talking to God about whats going on

in our life is not so much about the information it's about the honesty, opening the door for him, and just bringing him into the situation. Gods not going to barge into our life if the door is closed, he's respectful of the gift of free-will that HE HAS GIVEN US! I think we forget sometimes (I do FOR SURE) that Christ is the one who died for us to be free, and we take it for granted sooooo much, that's not what I'm trying to say in this blog, but what I am trying to say why are we running from a plan that is so perfect and is going to prosper us when at the same time we are trying to do that ourselves and failing. With Gods plan in our life we cannot fail! Even when it feels like we are failing we're not! And that's a such a great hope to hold on to. So when you feel like God has let you down, and your angry with him because of things that are happening, and you feel like he has abandoned you, that take that anger, and hopelessness to him and talk to him, and remember this verse as well. You might not now get the light bulb moment of seeing Gods plan in your life for many many years, but one day when you look back on your life your going to see Gods plan in it, and it's going to be life changing, I say that from my own life. God has never left my side no matter how many times I have left his.

Like this verse says, His plan was to prosper me, not harm me. It may take time but God has all the time in the world, in a way God is time (woah deepness ;] ). So if you like me and have to remind yourself not to feel ashamed for your mistakes. Just remember take them to God and them him work them into His plan for you life.