The Plan I Follow

In bible class last week it was my day to lead devotions and for my devotion I read this passage:

Jeremiah 29:11
11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.

The reason why I chose this passage for devotions was not only because I know it well but also because it is relevant for so many people not just those who are confused, or feeling down. Before I continue on re-read the verse one more time...
I hope and am pretty sure everyone as accepted the fact that we are all human, and we make mistakes and that bad things WILL and ALWAYS DO happen to us. So if you think for some reason that this verse doesn't apply to you, get over it because it does! There has been so many times in my life that I have felt out of control, or lost in all of the confusion of everything that has happened or is happening in my life (not going to go into all that, for it would take a whole other blog) but through it all, the highest of highs to the lowest of lows I have been able to hold onto hope because of this verse. God knew when I had to move away from my mom to Utah it would brake my heart and make me angry at him, but still he allowed it to happen for he knew in the end it would build a strength and a story in me that is very unique and powerful. Those longs nights when I would scream and cry to God asking him why why why? He listened and listened and would comfort EVEN though I was angry at him!

In the verse it says 'you will come to me... and I will listen!' That it is huge, so get this: it doesn't say, 'you will come to me and be perfectly happy with me to me and I will listen' and it doesn't say 'you will have your life all in order then you can come to me and I will listen' and it doesn't say 'when you understand everything that is going on you will come to me and I will listen'! It just says you will call upon me and I will listen, God doesn't expect us to get all his plans, and be happy about all his plans, all he says is the plans are good and they are going to prosper us, and he will listen to our frustration, maybe our joys, our fears, our WHATEVER!!! That is so great! When you feel like angry, confused, and like your life is falling apart, and your full of stress up to your eye-balls. Come to God and tell him about it, talk to him, tell him your stresses, your worries, your struggles. God doesn't care if your perfect (because we never will be) and he certainly doesn't care if we understand because he is there to take care of all that.

What I have found is God just wants us to come to him honestly and openly about everything, to that you might think 'he already knows everything anyway so whats the point?'. The thing about talking to God about whats going on in our life is not so much about the information it's about the honesty, opening the door for him, and just bringing him into the situation. Gods not going to barge into our life if the door is closed, he's respectful of the gift of free-will that HE HAS GIVEN US! I think we forget sometimes (I do FOR SURE) that Christ is the one who died for us to be free, and we take it for granted sooooo much, that's not what I'm trying to say in this blog, but what I am trying to say why are we running from a plan that is so perfect and is going to prosper us when at the same time we are trying to do that ourselves and failing. With Gods plan in our life we cannot fail! Even when it feels like we are failing we're not! And that's a such a great hope to hold on to. So when you feel like God has let you down, and your angry with him because of things that are happening, and you feel like he has abandoned you, that take that anger, and hopelessness to him and talk to him, and remember this verse as well. You might not now get the light bulb moment of seeing Gods plan in your life for many many years, but one day when you look back on your life your going to see Gods plan in it, and it's going to be life changing, I say that from my own life. God has never left my side no matter how many times I have left his.

Like this verse says, His plan was to prosper me, not harm me. It may take time but God has all the time in the world, in a way God is time (woah deepness ;] ). So if you like me and have to remind yourself not to feel ashamed for your mistakes. Just remember take them to God and them him work them into His plan for you life.
I know it's long sorry if you got bored but I hope this made sense. Thanks for reading :)

A Picture Is Worth A Thousand Words

I like to pretend sometimes that I'm a photographer. These pictures were taken this summer at the Como Zoo in Miniapolis, Minnesota. I trully enjoy photography when I have enough time to spend behind a lense. I wish I had more because I love photography. I enjoy taking nature shots, and also portraits but I haven't done very many portrait shots. If you guys like these pictures and want to see more maybe I will post another picture blog.
So as you all have let me know I haven't written a blog in a very long time and I am sorry so I am leaving these pictures occupy you while I write a blog. Your assignment after reading this blog is write me a comment about any topic you might want me to write about or would find interesting if I wrote about it!! Hope you like the pictures!

YAY for food pictures :D :D

Make you hungry?

Yes I did Take all of the pictures.

I Long For the Day

In My Mind
A Poem By: Me

In my mind I pictured myself
standing there
breathing the air
sensing the heartache
smelling the distant fragrance of honorable death.
Some graves are empty
yours isn't
and I am thankful.
The ground around is green,
with flowers
from tears watering it into life.
In my mind I picture myself
standing there with tears in my eyes
and an overflowing heart.
Your body lays
but your spirit does not.
I will see you again someday.
Maybe tomorrow,
maybe 30 years?
But now in my mind
I picture myself standing there
longing you'll tap me on the shoulder
grab my hand
and away we'll fly into yesterday.
When you were here
revving up the engine of that old motorboat.
But for now in my mind
I picture myself standing there
with an armful of flowers
and tears in my eyes.
The sky, grass, trees, birds, or bugs
can't put life into these graves.
But a song from the heart
lifted high
can be heard in the heavens.
Where you now stand
waiting with the Lord Jesus for me.

~~~~~~~~~~~

A poem for my grandpa who died a little over 3 years ago now. It makes me sad that I didn't get to know him as well as I would've liked to. He was a great man who loved and was loved by many! He was aspiring to become a professional baseball player and he was so close to reaching that goal when he enlisted into the military to serve his country bravely fighting in the Korean war. Even though I took his presence for granted he never stopped loving me. Now I look back on the phone calls I could have spent five more minutes talking with him, asking him about his childhood, or even just to write a letter, moments that I wish I could have a second chance with. He was an amazing grandpa, and I miss him everyday. I wrote this poem when my grandma sent pictures of his gravestone in the military cemetery where his body now lays. But I know one day I will get a chance to sit down with him in heaven and chat. And oh how I long for that day!I love you gramps!!

Thank you so much for reading, and I hope that you comment your thoughts on my poem. And I am so sorry guys I haven't written a blog in about a month! This probably wasn't what you were expecting but I hope you enjoyed it anyways!! :D

It makes my heart melt

So this past week has been absolutely amazing!! I have really missed Caitie you guys don't even understand. We have been best friends since we were in diapers, even though we were both in diapers till we were 13 ;) (but we don't about that much). I must say bike riding 20 miles, and walking a ton is really making me muscular. Hehe. Well as I was on Brighten (the band) Myspace page today, and they have links to their blogs, so me being the curious me I went to each blog, and on Justin's blog I found this...

I love you enough to give you the world.

Dig through every oyster on earth for a perfect pearl.

Stitch you sweaters, so you won't be cold.

Love you like you're young when you're growing old.

I love you enough to give you my jacket.

Give you my money, I don't need it, have it.

Give you my heart, and everything I own.

Give you marble when you're used to stone.

I love you more than your favorite pet.

More than your spouse, that you haven't met. V

Enough to swim across the ocean wearing cement shoes.

God loves you more than I do.

Doesn't this just touch your heart? Because it touches mine, probably because it is so true. I don't think anyone could put it in simpler, yet complex, obvious, yet unique, plain, yet so beautiful, unprofessional, yet so poetic, imperfect and perfect all in one! What I am saying is the way Justin puts Gods love so straight forward but still your thinking "I never have thought about it like that" but probably that's just me. Heh. I just love the way this is so true, and people don't even realize, God's love is so pure and perfect, God's love is deep, passionate, intimate, yet so real and in your face as it can get. I find myself living day by day forgetting why I call myself a "Christian", I mean why do I call myself a Christian?? Because it is the only way to heaven?? Because it looks good on a resume?? Because it makes me feel like a better person?? Or maybe it's because it's what all my friends are doing?? (Though probably not!!) I mean think about it, if you call yourself a Christian (Baptist, Lutherans, Seventh Day Adventist, Methodist etc. whatever) why are you what you say you are, truly deep down, that moment when you excepted Christ (if you really did) it's because of his love, and how he expressed it on the cross. Jesus didn't have to do what he did, but he did it anyways he gave his absolute all for EVERYONE who was and is going to be. Yet still day after day I have to try to remember to have at least 10 minutes quiet time. And I think to myself "Why is that??" why should I have to force myself to spend time with a God who WANTS to know me, who WANTS to spend time with me and I being the selfish me, I just don't care. I should feel honored to know there is a somebody...a BIG somebody who wants to know me, spend time with me, and who wants to be my best friend. I have been thinking about this for a long time, and when I read Justin's blog it sparked something in me, that really helped me see again why I call myself a child of God (a.k.a Christian). God is not a mean glowing being with wings just sitting up in the clouds ready to smite sinners, He is a loving God who really does WANT to know us!! So I encourage you just examine your heart right now and ask yourself..."Why am I a Christian." because for me personally I find myself being a "Christian" for all the wrong reasons. When God just wants us to know him and he wants to love on us. I dunno, that's what I have been thinking about lately.

Mainly this blog was for Christians, but I also hope that if you are not a Christian, or if you don't know Christ that somehow you know that Jesus really just wants a relationship. Well I have been doing many things here and been on the go go go, so I haven't had much time to write. Hope all of you are doing well, and really hope you will comment to AT LEAST let me know you read it. Maybe that's too much to ask. Well goodnight everybody have a lovely evening, or maybe its morning, or lunch, or whatever the case may be I hope its lovely. :D

Beautiful Day

Today was awesome!! Caitie and I biked 12 miles it was insane!! She's whining about her calve's, I guess I'm
not feeling the burn as much as she is, I must be more in shape then I thought (haha)!! Well riding listening to music, listening to nature, feeling the wind on my face, the sun, the birds, just everything combined was perfect today. I haven't biked in so so soooo long and it was so much fun today. Caitie and I biked around this lake (Lake Harriot) which was absolutely gorgeous!! I dunno just being here is so surreal, it's been a year since I have seen Caitie and it's awesome catching up! I don't think you guys really care about all this stuff, but all I can say is I am going to be so buff after biking 12 miles ever day! FEEl THE BURN!!! OH!! And after biking we decided to take a break and get a ice-cream we made friends with the two boys working there. Caitie and I decided we are going to get super tight with them before our time is up. Not JUST to get free ice-cream ;) That's all I have to say for now. Everyday is going to be a new adventure!! I will keep you posted!
P.S. Dad you are not going to enjoy this bad news. I don't enjoy it either, but as we were eating lunch at this place by the lake I dropped my I-Pod and it broke :'( I basically cried. Yes I am a baby. Ok bye now.

Happy Fathers Day

Yesterday was Fathers Day and unfortunately I could not be there to share it with my Dad. But dad you know I would've worked up some crazy Happy Fathers Day song, buy you a pack of ball cards, take you to the park, and eat some lunch while we play guess the ball player (and battle ship would def finitely be in there some where ;D )! I love Mother's and Fathers Day because it gives us a chance to see what our parents do for us! Dad your great, and you have been great at teaching me how to drive I really appreciate all you have done.

To all you other dads out there keep going, fathers have a hard job in the family, being the rock, the Mr. Fix-it. Not all dads have the gift of fixing things, but many have those strong arms and love in their hearts to love on there kids! You have to handle all the moms going through pregnancy with crazy cravings, mood swings, and all that jazz. Dads thanks for just being a dad, so for all you dads who have stuck through all the hardships that come along with being a parent congrats, and thank you so so so so much!!



HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!

Comfort

Today as my dad and I listened to the radio on the way to the airport we heard the most bizarre story. The story really got me thinking about how people will do almost anything for comfort. I think all of us to some level do things to be comfortable like air conditioning, warm blankets, cushy bike seats, comfy shoes, clothes, the list goes on and on. Comfort is not a bad thing it is definitely a bonus to living in this day and age where we have things that help us be comfortable. But then there are some people who go to the extremes to make sure they are in the most comfortable environment/state they could possibly be in. One example of this would be what golfers know as the "Jelly Boy". The Jelly Boy is a person who covers themselves in jelly and follow around a golfer so the mosquito's will bite himself instead of the golfer. "How ridiculous!" you might be thinking, which was exactly my first reaction when I heard that too! Who would take a job like that?? Was my second thought! Well I guess if you are going to get malaria why not get paid for it right?!? A way that Allison and I like to stay comfortable on airplanes is we make as much of a ruckus, and be as annoying as we can so no one will want to sit between us (it works 98% of the time)! It is a fact that people go to great lengths to be comfortable, which in all cases is not bad, some are just plan silly. And if you really think about it is actually quite silly what we will do to be comfortable.

We live in such a materialistic age, and in a world where we feel everything should be about "ME ME ME!!!". We are willing to put other people into discomfort for our own comfort. I definitely struggle with only thinking of myself sometimes and is something I have been working on, and hope to break free of my selfish thinking. I feel that the world might turn a little smoother if we all could realize that this world does not revolve around just himself, there are 60 billion other people out there trying just as hard as you to find your place in the world. Next time you feel uncomfortable in any way (emotionally, physically, mentally) just take a deep breath and try to have a positive attitude. With a positive attitude almost anything can be "comfortable". If you live in America, or have a house with heating, cooling, a bed, indoor plumbing, and electricity etc. you are way above the average person in the world, so many of us (especially myself) can be very selfish, so lets to something to change that! Life is only what we allow it to be. So today go out with a positive attitude, and live today as today and let tomorrow worry about itself. :]

Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Leaving

Well this week was probably one of the funnest weeks ever! (Besides last summer with Caitie) And now looking back on all I fit into the 24 hours each days contains is crazy! And I had a blast with EVERYONE, and am going to miss you all very very very much! I hope you all continue on reading my blog even though I am gone. I love you all, and thank you guys for being awesome!! So I leave for Minnesota tomorrow and I am verrrrrry excited!! MOMMA HERE I COME! But to leave you all with smiles on your face here is a picture of my dad, Emily, David, and me.

I'm the little one in the hat! (I still can fit it!) and I think you can figure out the rest. Hehe. Well farewell!! :D I will write a blog tomorrow if I have time!

Juno: Good or Bad?

Christian reviewers have taken a critical view of the movie Juno. For those of you who haven't seen it the movie is about a young girl (Juno) who is pregnant, confused and wants to have an abortion. When Juno arrives at the abortion clinic a young girl (Su-Chin) is standing outside protesting against abortion. After the encounter with Su-Chin Juno decides against abortion. After making the decision to not have an abortion Juno decides to place her baby up for adoption. The movie then follows the ups and downs of Juno's pregnancy and the adoption process. Not to ruin the ending for those that haven't seen the movie but scene in the hospital showing Paulie Bleeker and Juno as confused teenagers is powerful. It is important to note the movie does not show the teenagers going on with super-duper lives after the birth and adoption of the baby.

The magazines "Plugged In" and "Brio Girl" say Juno does not have a realistic ending, and two friends go back to normal teen-hood. I agree with the magazines that the movie is not a accurate representation of how pregnancy and adoption work. But the Juno story is very uplifting that shows teenagers they can choose life over abortion. I believe Focus on the Family misses that point. In the magazine "Brio Girl" it says Juno shows that pre-marital sex pregnancy is a fun adventure for teens. For a non-Christian movie I feel Juno is a very encouraging movie for girls and boys. The movie shows a girl who can make it through a pregnancy and a boy who doesn't run. This is important because so many times young men bail on the girl leaving her feeling that there is no other option but abortion. Juno is a good movie just to sit down for a laugh but it also presents a good message!

I feel Focus on the Family did not represent the movie in an accurate way, I just wish that they could realize that this movie has shown the light on teen pregnancy in a different way. My message to Focus on the Family is this; instead of writing bad reviews on Juno make a "Christian Juno" movie if you feel that strongly!! It makes me angry that a great movie like Juno is not good enough in the eyes of the Christian community!! Christians don't go telling your friends that this is a bad movie because it ISN'T! Focus on the Family makes Christians look like idiots writing reviews like they have in "Brio Girl" and "Plugged In". It breaks my heart that we Christians get so stubborn about the silliest things.
I do want you all to know that I don't think Juno is a perfect movie but it does show light on Pregnancy in a positive way. And for the secular world to do a movie with a pro-life message is amazing. We should embrace it instead of push it away because I guarantee the pro-life message of the movie reached at least ONE girl in this world!!

I hope that you enjoyed this post, please comment on my thoughts! And if you have seen Juno or Bella please comment me with your thoughts!! I love feedback!! Thank you so so so much for reading!!

Movie Watch: If you have seen "Juno", "Bella" is another great family movie to rent and watch! Here is a really short summary.

An international soccer star is on his way to sign a multi-million dollar contract when a series of events unfold that bring his career to an abrupt end. A beautiful waitress, struggling to make it in New York City, discovers something about herself that she's unprepared for. In one irreversible moment, their lives are turned upside down... until a simple gesture of kindness brings them both together, turning an ordinary day to an unforgettable experience.

Judgemental People: Part 2

Alright, so yesterday I left a quick note about how I really don't like judgmental people. So I guess you could say someone did spark me into wanting to write this, but it wasn't completely someone else. So to start off this rant on why judgmental people really get under my skin, I just want to ask you a quick question...Do you think you are better then someone? If you do, WHY? Is it because you can do your hair better, you dress better, you can sing, dance better, or you think your smarter, prettier, cleaner, nicer, maybe you play guitar, piano, baseball, basketball, whatever better then they do that makes you feel you are better person then someone else.

(Well just to warn you in this blog I am going to be using Bible verses and if that will turn you off to this blog I am sorry and hope you still read anyways. )

Alright when I get in conversations with people who ask me how do you feel about homosexuals, abortion, people who do drugs, sex outside of marriage, anything that is very disagreeable/debatable to today's society people will talk with me about it, ask me questions. And yes I do have my opinions on homosexuals, drugs, abortion, sex, and anything else that is a little in the grey area of what is acceptable and what's not. So many times I will give them my opinion, and if they find that I might agree with their opinion on an issue they will start bashing on the problem or a person that struggles with those issues. AND I HATE THAT!! People who judge anyone whether they are "emo", "goth", Caucasian, African American, Asian, Bulgarian, Yugoslavian, a homosexual, a drug user, whatever...don't bash them around me!! We are all human and we ALL make mistakes!!

Romans 3:23

"for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God"

Matthew 7:1-2

"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you."

So no matter how holy you think you are, how much you read your bible, how much you pray, or go to church, you are not free from sin, UNLESS you have asked god to cleanse you of your sins. But still we were all born into sin.

On Youtube you will see there are soooooooo many Christians on there bashing on the homosexuals, the girls who are very provocative, or just people who don't have the same views as they do! And all these Christians do is get on there and start saying how they are going to hell, and how they are the spawn of Satan or whatever and it is just so dumb. I think it is OK to have a different opinions and views on things as long as it is in line with the way God wants us to think. But even the people out there who aren't followers of Christ and don't have opinions like Christ, bashing on them, and telling them how they are going to hell because of their opinions is ridiculous, and isn't going to prove them anything except that all Christians are judgmental A** holes. Which is what they think of us!! I just think it's funny that Christians think it's a right that they have to go tell "sinners" just how wrong they are, when really they need to look in the mirror and see, they are just as much of a sinner as the person they are judging!!!

Psalms 7:8

let the LORD judge the peoples.

As much as we might disagree with a persons opinions, believes, race, or their sexual orientation we have not right to judge them it is not our place...IT'S GODs!! And if they don't see that there REALLY is a God out there who will judge them one day, but dearly loves them, what can you do? You can still love on them, pray for them and show them through YOUR OWN humble actions who Christ really is. Think about it, if they choose to be homosexual, "emo", non-believers, whatever then there still is an empty hole in their heart where Jesus belongs, so instead of pushing them farther away from what they need, point them in the direction of where they need to go! You could save a life! God forgives our sins, no matter how big we think they are, or how small they could be God died on the cross for ALL of us and ALL of our sins!!

Jeremiah 33:8

"I will cleanse them from all the sin they have committed against me and will forgive all their sins of rebellion against me."

As that verse says he will forgive all sins!! Today instead of looking at someone who doesn't share the same views and opinions on everything as you do, why don't you ask them why they are the way they are, and believe the things they do. Before you judge you might find that we ARE ALL struggling humans looking for our place in this messed up world. Some just struggle to find there place in different ways and need love....God's love! Be that love, share God's love that he has placed in all of us the day we became followers of Him.

Genesis 1:27

"So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them."

That person you are judging was made in the same image as you are, so don't be so cocky about how much better you are, because God made us all unique. And that's the way things should be, I believe people she not be ashamed of who God made them to be! So next time we talk, or see each other don't feel afraid to talk with me about any opinions you might have because I would love to hear them. But it's just when people bash on other people for what they believe, and does really REALLY gets under my skin.

Well that's all I have for write now!! Tell me what you think about what I wrote about...any questions you have feel free to ask!!

Thank You for reading this incredibly long blog :D

Short and Sweet

Ok I'm going to make this short and sweet because I'm about to leave for the night!! I will definitely elaborate more in a later blog. But for now all I have to say is...

I REALLY DON'T LIKE JUDGEMENTAL PEOPLE!

Alright that's all for now. Have a great Sunday evening everybody! :D

Ode to Caitie

So basically I made myself look like an idiot in my last blog, for those of you who read it earlier i spelled quit wrong...I spelled it quite. Yeah shows how much I learned in school this year. Well I have 9 days till I see my best friend that I haven't seen since last July sooo I am wayyy stoked!! We are going to party down like it's 1999, we've decided. But I just wanted to dedicate this blog to her.

Caitie Carwile has been there with me since day one. We have made it through some of the biggest milestones together like: Diapers, kindergarten, losing our first tooth, letting go of our bankeys (blankets), moving to new places, broken bones, boys, broken hearts, chopped off fingers! haha!, getting fried on the beach to driving!! There are so many memories I have with this laday! And it is such and honor growing up with her! Watching her mature into this now beautiful young lady in Christ is awesome!! Last summer was a huge milestone that we crossed in our friendship, after not seeing, or talking to each other that often for a couple years last year I went down to visit, and it was as if nothing changed!! We were just as close as we ever were, probably closer!!! And it was probably the best summer of my life soo far!! (this one is going to be better i hope!!) But OH BOY do I love her! She's the best and I really hope she knows that!! I love you babaycakes! B&F/TDDUP!!

To all you people who are reading this I'm sorry if this just wasted your time. But come on are we the cutest best friends or what!! haha jk! But you know it's true! So to make this relevant, why don't you tell me about your best friend!! Leave me a comment about you and your best friend. ohh and read my other blogs if you haven't already!! Have a lovely rest of the day!!

Peace!

Schools Out!

Today was the last day of school for me, and normally I am the first person out the door once those bells ring. But today I felt different about this school ending thing! I have become quite close to a lot of people there this year, and it sad to see them go. Since I am going to be on an epic journey with Caitie and my momma this summer!! So when I was driving with my dad back from Catura's house last night, I was stopped at a stop light, and soooo many memories rushed into my head, then I thought about school ending and how sad and weird that really is! I am the first one to admit school is not my favorite pass time, but it should be appreciated...sometimes. Haha. School is hard, and so many times I just don't feel like doing it, I feel like throwing in the towel and saying "I QUIT!" but that's WAY to easy to do! You know, think about it! Think about how much easier it is to quit doing anything that's hard and a lot of work, then keep press on and really reap the amazing benefits of pushing through! I have a lot of respect for people who never give up on what they really want to do! I really want to graduate high school, and I really want to change the world! But I will never be able to do anything if I just give up when things get hard! Which is what I do A LOT :S heh.

So back to school now. Today was so boring, lame, practically a waste of time. All we did is sit in a desk and watch the clock turn from 8:20 to 9:01 to 10:45 to 11:13 till 12:20!! But that's besides the point! first off I just want to write how much I am going to miss Connor who is leaving for a different school (I can't blame him) and Broc who is moving to upstate New York (really can't blame him!!). Tonight at graduation will be the last time I see them for a long long time! And that really bums me out! They are two of the funniest kids I know, and if you two are reading this, I will love you both foreverrr! :D Then there is John!! JPG!!! My brother from another mother practically! We became so close this year, we told each other everything, and had a lot of ups and downs but through it all we've been there for each other through the thick and thin!! But since he is a Senior he is going to be leaving back for Korea (his hometown) and it's sad he is probably not coming back!!! AHHH!! Well maybe all my sob stories are meant for another blog, because I bet most of you have stopped readingby now...and probably won't leave me a comment, because hardly anyone does. But that's A.O.K!!

So right now it feels like next Monday I am going to have to wake up at 6:00, drink a couple cups of tea, then go to school. But in reality i'm all done for the summer!!! It's sooooo weird! I can't even explain it well. Write to me about how your last day of school was! Whether it was 20 years ago or just the other day let me know!!

Thanks for reading if you read this!! But I gotta run!!

Peaceout :D

Happy Birthday Daddy!

So June 1st was my Daddy's birthday!! I wanted to write this blog sooner, saying how much I love him...but I have been so incredibly busy lately its insane!!! Becaue it's in the morning before I leave for school I can't write much, but I know I won't have anytime after school. Its the last week of school technically 3 and a half more days!!! WOOT WOOT! Anyways I will write more about that later. So Sunday was my Dads birthday and what I wanted to do is act like I forgot then lead him on a clue hunt to the park, and have a picnic with everybody. But since that didn't work out, we had "barbaque!" (basically greg made hamburgers) and Tiffany, Greg, PRESLEY! David, Allison, Paula, Me, and of course my Dad (Kevin). Unffortunitly Emily my oldest sister was able to make it....probably because she is in Europe!! I dunno maybe thats the reason...you decide ;). I did get to make my dad a clue hunt though later that evening after eating lunch, playing with presley in the sprinklers, Allison, Paula and I went shopping while my dad napped (he's getting old!! hehe!). Then later after he finished his clue hunt he came back from where the last clue had led him and we had pizza, chocolote covered penut m&m's!! YUM then just talked the rest of the night. It was a pretty chill day! I loved seeing presley!! And I loved hanging out with my dad!! It was a good day I hoped he liked it too!! Well I am about to leave for school. So I must stop writing now!! Goodbye!

p.s. I have to tell a funny story, so Jarah yesterday brought me some sonic and we just talked for a bit and looked photos, and stuff. But on my phone I have a sticker of Arora from Sleeping Beauty and most people when you have something extra to say in a letter you say p.s. then what you want to say. Well Jarah said "I love her. p.s." It was so funny!! I love you Jarah!!!

Mind Like the Mountains

Soooooo today I got my permit!!! WOOOHOOO!! *victory dance* Yes after a year of waiting finally I got it. I believe really God was teaching me patience throughout this whole time. Because towards the end I was a little ancy and restless just wanting to have it! I will most definitely be more appreciative of it now, and be sure to be a save driver! And to all you young, old, tall, and small etc etc. people please just be kind to each other out there. No need to be impatient, well maybe but there is no use it's just a waste of energy...that's what I learned. But what I really wanted to share in this blog is this poem I wrote last year, and as I read it again last night I fell in love with it once again! Well some reasons I love this poem because it really is how my mind is. But don't read it thinking just about my mind but how an imaginative, creative, deep, wide, artistic a mind can be, and how God designed them if we just open up! (Not aiming that at anyone I promise ;D ) I dunno I hope you get something out of this whatever it may be. Poetry is AAAAAMAZING! I love it, it is such a beautiful expression of life, emotions, a moment captured in time. Well enjoy!!

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My mind is like the mountains.... massive, powerful.
The white misty clouds roll in, like a lacy necklace,
Resting along the ridges. The silent beauty whispers
Softly, as distant thoughts I cannot grasp.

My mind is like the mountains.
Changing with each season, but always beautiful,
With each season I learn more, mature, and grow.
Each season has its own personality. Spring is warm
And cheerful, summer blazing and exciting, fall is
Brisk and colorful, winter cold, and sad but still
Awes us with its white splendors.

My mind is like the mountains.
Some places are jagged, some smooth, some as
High as the sky, or as low as the ground; no place is
The same. The trees are my memories, each unique
In its own way. Some are older than others, some
New, sprouting everyday. The caves are memories
Wanted to be forgotten, but still linger among the rocks.
My imagination is as the animals running around
Vibrant, creative, and free.

My mind is like the mountains.
Great and mighty, no one can every fully understand...Not even me.

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Thank you for reading please keep checking, life has been crazy!! I am painting my room and that has been occupying my time, its not quite finished yet. But yehh and just waiting for my permit and all. So yeah. Well comment, e-mail, and keep reading!!

peace and love!

To All The Mothers

Momma, wish I couldv'e been there in the morning to give you a pancake breakfast, with flowers and a cheesy song that is totally spontaneous and sounds like a dying cow. Then I would take you downstairs and you would find the whole house cleaned, and a nice cake saying "i love you mom" in crappy icing handwriting, then find a card with some hilarious mom joke inside then we would hug and watch movies for the rest of the day! So lets pretend that all happened :D I love you and wish you HAPPY MOMMA's DAY!!

But I also wish to thank moms all over the world for being who you are taking care of all us crazy kids. For suffering back pain, strange craving, morning sickness, and labor for us sometimes unrespectfull children! You have sheltered, cared for, kissed, hugged, stayed up all night for us and sometimes we don't even say thank you! So to all you mothers who didn't get a Happy Mothers day today. Here's a HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!! From me to you!! You all are really GREAT! So even when the times get really hard, and us crazy kids don't get along well, know we will grow up one day! And when that day comes I'm sure we will appreciate all you do for us! So I believe in you!

Moms I have a lot of respect for you, for taking care of me, and others like me. For not giving up on us after the first week of staying up all night of us crying and changing our diapers. It takes a lot to be mom! So I hope every ONE of you feels appreciated today!

I can't say THANK YOU enough!!

p.s. Dads you guys are awesome too but it's not your day so you'll just have to wait for your blog ;)

How To Comment Me

Hey everyone!! So I have gotten many e-mails asking how to leave me a comment! Which is great because it means your reading my blog!! And thank you to all who do. So instead of emailing all of you trying to explain how to leave a comment, those of you who don't know how I am going to make this simple...WITH PICTURES! Hehe. So here we go!

Step 1) Go to the very bottom of the post you are reading, and you will see this...

once you click that you will come to this screen...

Step 2) Leave your comment in this box...

After you have typed all the wonderful things you have to say to me ;) you will

Step 3) You have to type in some random letters because blogspot wants to make sure your not some hacker trying to hack my blog. So it's alright if you don't like this step, no one does, but it helps all the bloggers out there be safe. And we like that :D sooo....

Step 4) Choose which "identity" you are. For most of you, you would be clicking Name/URL because you don't have a blogspot account (if you have a blogspot account you should know what to do!!!) and just do what the picture says....

Finally that brings us to

Step 5) Preview or Post, its your decision

If you followed all these steps and successfully left me a comment then GREAT JOB!!

Hopefully this was helpfull!! If it wasn't just e-mail me with any questions you have. Keep reading and I'll keep udating ;) have a great weekend guys! Mine is going to be super busy! But thats for another blog!

peace!

Homeschool

So I read a blog about homeschooling the other day, and was angry at what I read. The man writing the blog said things like "home schoolers=anti social morons" and the thing is home schooled kids ARN'T anti social morons. I have a lot of home schooled friends who are deffinatly not anti social! The thing is, this guy thought he was sooo funny and said many smart mouth things, very mean, very rude, very unintelligent. Basically what I have to say in response to all you people who talk smack on home schooled kids need to just lay off!

See what most people don't realize, some kids don't have a choice whether they are home schooled or not, some kids do. But what does it matter to you anyway because its their life and there desicion. People could say anything makes someone "anti social" it's just the easiest to pick on home schooled kids because there are so many stereotypes about them, and so many are anti social. Or at least it used to be that way. The home schooling life is changing, there are co-ops you can go to which is basically class 2 or 3 times a week with other home schoolers. I'm just saying people have the wrong thoughts about home schooling, and really don't know how it works. So just stop making judgements on something till you know more about what your talking about.

Another reason why it bugs me people make fun of home schoolers is because some of them have handicaps and need direct attention all the time, or have social handicaps, there is nothing the kid or parents can do but love there kid enough to school them at home. I think its fine if a kid or a parents, for a dissability wants to be home schooled. I dunno this just kinda ties into don't talk about something you don't know much about, don't diss someone/something you know nothing about, except what you've heard or seen. It's lame! Personally I would never want to be home schooled, some kids do, and some kids are forced to. It's not really their fault if they are forced to be home schooled, and I'm not home schooled so it's great! My concluding thought is homeschoolers=too smart for public or private schools! Especially smarter than the guy who wrote that obscene blog.

p.s. To all you home schooled kids who are forced to be homeschooled and don't want to be...I'm sorry. But don't worry, school sucks NO MATTER WHAT!!

It's the Little Things

Today was such a good day! Jarah picked me up from school about 11:30 (don't worry it was a half day! Which is fabulous!) and we grabbed a quick lunch at Taco Bell! YUM! Then hurried over to Corrines graduation. GREAT JOB CORRINE! Jarah then had a fabulous idea to go to a bead store and make jewelry which really was a fabulous idea! I made a super dank bracelet. (over there)

About 3:40 we went and got a Jamba Juice! Second YUM!! I dunno it doesn't seem like we did much but really we did!! It was a great day just chillin with Jarah, she is probably the sweetest person I know! Tonight I am going to this thing called Spring Fling and it just an all nighter Youth Convention, I've never been so I hope its fun! So that'll be fun! So really I just really enjoy just being with people, sharing that quality time...you know! It's just great to go and make bracelets and talk. Jarah and I didn't talk about stupid gossip, movie stars, or the latest drama with the O.C. like most people do. We talked about whats going in our life, things that are relevant not just for today but tomorrow and the next day after that! We decided people don't do that much anymore, and that's really sad but so true! As I have said many times we live in such a superficial world these days, I HATE THAT! Can't people see deeper than the surface of things these days?? Please somebody who just wants to go get a coffee and talk about politics, the grass, a book, anything! I don't mind talking about boys, I like to now and again, I don't mind talking about movies and stuff like that. But please lets go have a picnic and look at the sky and talk about emotions, the world, things that people talk about but then just forget. Or lets go and just lay in the grass and look at the sky and dream together.

What I was telling Jarah today is that I saw this old couple walking together the other day and they really looked in love and it really just made my heart jump because I think that is the cutest thing ever!! There are people in this world who can stay in love! It's just the little things like a happy old couple walking together in the morning, star gazing, going to coffee just to chill. I really want to appreciate the little things in life even more than I do! Because those are the things that matter most!! The ones we can hold dearly and never forget!! So please call me up ask to go get coffee, call me up with your problems I would love to listen, whatever it is I hope to be here for you, and I will try!

Young Love

Many of you who read my Imagination blog gave me great advice about my future "huz". And so you all don't think I am desperately searching (I'm not!), I wanted you all to read this poem I wrote a while back. Even if you don't think I am desperately searching I think its a great poem and can reach many teens, and has reached many of my friends and others. I'm not one of these girls who is anxious to date, marry, or have kids. I am just letting God guide me, and one day I will meet the man of my dreams! I would be lying if I said I don't ever think about being married, my husband that whole blah blah blah. I think people should be thinking about their FUTURE love life, set goals for themselves, and let God direct them where-ever he may go. He may lead you to love early, or way in the future, don't get discouraged you'll meet the one you've been praying for! I am looking (always :P) but I'm not worried, and there really is no need to be. Anyways here is my poem, hope you enjoy it! (it's kinda long...I guess.)

Passionate

I wish to one day love deeper,

sweeter,

authentically,

romantically,

passionately,

eccentric.

Crazy?

Crazy!

Love is a word more than a word,

it's a lifestyle

The day that i find this beautiful love crazy-thing

I will know that it is love that i have been

waiting for

praying for

holding on for.

For this love will touch me softly,

it will keep me through the night,

This love will tell me what I need not what I want.

This love is the ONE that I have kept for,

the one that will be different.

This love will take me places that I have never known.

Love is a beautiful work,

a beautiful verb.

A place I can go,

a place I can be.

Not just a feeling

Not just a romance

Not just some high school pretend.

What is love?

What is loves true meaning?

Is it hugging gently in the hallway after fourth period?

Is it Holding hands as you walk down the street?

Is it when you talk on the phone six hours at a time?

Do you think you're in love;

when he gently touches you,

when she says your going to be the only one,

when he kisses you softly,

when she holds you tightly,

when you write little love notes back and fourth?

Class to class

cute glance to each other from across the room.

I believe cheap love comes young.

Cheap romance comes early.

Cheap cheap cheap!

Too young,

too early,

too fresh,

too...whatever.

Keep yourself available,

NOT helpless.

Wanting,

NOT searching.

Waiting,

NOT doing.

Why wait,

why keep clean,

till the one comes that changes.

You will get strong,

get wise,

get better.

Wait.

Wait?

Wait!

No rush

No hurry.

I wish one day that prince charming will come.

He will lift me off my feet!

Waiting is hard,

long,

annoying,

agonizing sometimes.

Still wishing that one day I will find love,

deep,

sweet,

authentic,

romantic,

eccentric.

Crazy?

YES!

But I wait.

I'll wait for you.

Sorry the poem is all over the place. It's kinda my style. I have so many more poems, I hope to post more on here! So yes this poems sounds weird but I'm saying that teens these days think that they are finding their true love in high school! Yeah it's probable but come on hardly ever do things work out it's using some stupid fake love fantasy; really shallow, all based on "feelings". When people ask me who I have feelings for I usually say "I have many feelings for many people. " and automatically they think I mean "looove!" When really I mean bad, good, sad, mad, dislike, love etc "feelings! I mean what does "to have feelings for someone" mean anyway!?! A feeling can be many things, which you can't base your life on. Yes some people have "feelings" that are right, but not always! The last thing I want to say is don't base anything dealing with your love life bf/gf stuff off of "feelings" because thats just so immature, and shallow. I could write about this forever! but I think this is good enough for right now. I need to go do homework!!

p.s. Just so you know I don't believe you need to have a blogger account to leave me comments so FEEL FREE! Thanks for reading once again!